It's been a strange four months, four months of ups and downs, high highs and low lows but it's beginning to feel like life is starting to balance, like the dust is beginning to settle. This means I can begin to look at the future....which is nice.
I owe so much to those who have been with me and supported me. For those of you who read this guff on a regular basis you'll know I try to avoid mentioning names, so here's a roll call of folk I really want to thank.
CP, SMc, Dad, Mum, GH, JH, JD, MD, CH, SP, Sister, Brother, Son, SW, RL, VY
There is no doubt that I'll have missed someone off but if you know me you'll expect it of me.
I've mentioned before about how colleagues have become great friends since I moved to the area, this hits home again just looking at the list above. Some of the above people I haven't even seen face to face but they have sent messages offered support and it all means alot, even more so now that I'm looking back over the last few months. you guys are my world and what ever happens I promise I will always be there to return the love, support, friendship, the laughs and the reality checks you have given me.
So if you do read this guff on a regular basis you may wonder what's changed? No? Oh well, I'll tell you anyway...(if your bored already feel free to click the cross in the top right corner).
From the above list I could single out anyone of them and tell you what wonderful people they are, and they have all helped in a different way, but there is one in the list that probably isn't aware just how much she has helped and in such a short period.
It started about 4 weeks ago, when we started our relationship I'll be honest, I was a bit nervous, nervous because I didn't want to lead anyone on, hurt her or give the wrong impression of me. I was never looking to 'play the field' or have one night stands but at the same time was I ready for a relationship?
I knew S through work, she's funny, level headed, mature, sensible but she can also let her hair down... so to speak. I was ready to see where or what it would lead to, so when she send a text with a 'get out clause' I knew I wanted to see her again.
I wasn't expecting anything and didn't want to either, but in the time we have had, I've met more great people, funny people. With S, I feel very relaxed almost at peace. This is very new for me in a relationship. It's a world where no discussions are off limits, where I can say what's on my mind with out fear of the consequences, someone that tells me straight and laughs at me and with me when I cock up. I can be me.
It is still early days, and there is no pressure its great to enjoy the moments as they come by and then look forward to the next moments. at the moment it's perfect, she's perfect for me, long may it continue.
For now I'm happy,
T'ra for now
Mike
